Echos of My Soul

A little change from the ordinary not a poem but a statement

Bay County sheriff's officials say the discovery of a human head late Monday afternoon in the shallow waters of St. Andrews Bay could be the missing link in the Lennia Hing murder case. The 18-year-old's headless body was found in a wooded area off of big daddy drive on panama city beach three months ago. Lennia's husband, 19-year-old Blake Collier, was arrested and charged with her murder, but even with Lennia's accused killer behind bars, her family remained uneasy of what they knew would come next.

"We knew that because only part of her body was found we would some day get a call," says Barry Beaver, Lennia's stepfather.

They finally got that call late Monday afternoon from bay county sheriff's officials who told them a nearby resident may have found the missing link in Lennia's murder case. The man was walking his dog along the St. Andrews bayfront when he found a woman's head in about two feet of water.

"It kind of gives us closure, but also we're reliving it all over again," says Beaver.

The medical examiner's office will now determine if the head is Lennia Hing's, and while one chapter could soon be closed in this tragic case, Lennia's family says the worse is still yet to come.

"The bad part now is sometime down the line we're going to have to tell her daughter, Emma, about what happened to her mother," says Beaver.

An account has been set up for Lennia's daughter, Emma Collier, at all Trustmark Banks.

a dear friend someone i went to school with someone that was beautiful and intelegent wrapped in the deciving arms of drugs and abuse she was a bright sould that dimmed way before her time i look into her daughters eyes and still see her today everyday i think about her and the tragedy but she will never be forgotten because she will always have me

the spiders dance the walls instead the voices speak inside my head their telling me what i should do do you hear my voices to with no escape they chat away in and out of everyday the faces push within the walls the banchie screams the devil calls they pull me in they peirce the skin they want me to join their life of sin they tear the ropes that bind me here and fill my soul will the darkest fears they laugh at me as they see me cry they dance and dance as i start to die what am i supposed to do can you hear these voices to if you were to take them away would it still remain the same could i live out each day would i be lonley would the skys be gray i just dont know what i should do can you hear my voices to? 

forget his touch

forget his face

forget his words

and warm embrace

forget him when he said

"I love you"

when he kissed and

when he hugged you

forget his words

"I'll leave you never"

rememeber now he's

gone forever

A HEART IS NOT A PLAYTHING IT IS NOT A TOY BUT IF YOU WANT IT BROKEN JUST GIVE IT TO A BOY HE'LL TAKE IT AND HE'LL STOMP IT AND HE'LL THROW IT ON THE FLOOR BUT WHEN IT COMES TO MAKING LOVE THEY WANT IT MORE AND MORE SO IF YOU WANT A BROKEN HEART JUST GIVE IT TO A BOY HE'LL TAKE IT AND HE'LL STOMP IT JUST AS IF IT WERE A TOY

lost...................................

awating a release from all the pain i have the pain of not knowing where i am going yet standing still at last. i am scared of all my tomarrows yet living in the past how can i reach forward when backwards where i fall how can i live each day as if im not living at all?

i feel as if its useless makeing up my dreams because late at night when your asleep all i hear is silent screams wanting to be free of this i just cant understand i reach my hand out towards you yet get buried in the sand

why is it that i live like this so utterly lost and confused i feel as if no matter what im used tourtered and abused i try and try and try andtry yet only breaking ground its as if my soul will never reach the air and i am destined to drownd